Bad theology kills your soul.
Good theology kills what’s
crushing your soul.
theology kills
a podcast about letting our shame &
violence die so that life & love can thrive
what if God doesn’t
ask us to be correct
— just creative?
Toxic theologies have been weaponized to wound, but the gospel was always meant to be medicine. Hosts January Jaxon and Andrew McRae blend René Girard’s mimetic theory with Internal Family Systems to unveil a Christ-centered theology of integrity that heals shame, fosters embodiment, and points us toward a lit-up life of deeply rooted joy. Balancing scriptural insight with personal reflections, Theology Kills is a podcast for healing the bruises left by bad theology and reclaiming the gutsy, grace-filled adventure of coming fully alive in the image of Christ.
what you’ll experience
We help you read Scripture through the lens of wholeness and nonviolence, so you can let go of toxic beliefs without losing the living heart of Christian faith. Each episode explores the ways that shame & violence warp our creativity, our relationships, and our sense of self — and how a more loving, embodied faith can set us free.
we’ll talk about:
Eve and Mary through the lens of Maureen Murdock’s Heroine’s Journey
Pregnancy as a metaphor for divine creativity
Shame and blame as forms of violence
How trust empowers creativity
Why good theology begins in the body
Holiness that’s not a fragile purity, but a robust catholicity
How presence, truth, and kindness help us navigate conflict
Attention as an antidote to violence
Creative change as an ally, not an enemy, when we trust the love of Christ
with practices drawn from neuroscience and monasticism:
Sabbath & stillness
Open-focus meditation
Internal Family Systems (IFS)
“This, not that” mini-manifestos
Elizabeth Gilbert’s Letters from Love
Confession & forgiveness
Your inner Creature, Controller, and Compassionate Witness
Calibrating your body compass
The integrity fractal
The Work of Byron Katie
meet your hosts
January Jaxon and Andrew McRae are lay theologians with a passion for the magic & mess of living in nonviolent imitation of Christ.
January Jaxon
is a Pacific Northwest writer, designer, and coach hosting spaces that blend creative practice with emotionally healthy theology. She helps people find empowerment through creativity & courage instead of through control, so we can quit brutally trying to “fix” each other (or ourselves!) and focus instead on what we each contribute to a future of collective flourishing.
Andrew McRae
is a roamer who started ESL gigging to feed his habit of wanting to live someplace far away. The days of impulsive one-way transoceanic travel have passed. The roaming, however, continues — mostly through the pages of graphic novels — as he searches out stories that might spark the curiosity of language learners. Currently, his faraway residence is his childhood home in Kentucky.
our vision
A Church that relinquishes shame & rivalry and lives in imitation of Christ as a social model of integrity, vulnerability, and divine non-violence in a wounded world.
our mission
To proclaim Christ by recovering a theology that empowers trust, fosters embodiment, and invigorates creativity.
our approach
We help you read Scripture through a lens of wholeness and nonviolence, so you can let go of toxic beliefs without losing the living heart of Christian faith.
